Beverley Ward writes fiction and poetry for adults, children and young people. She facilitates a wide range of face-to-face and online workshops as well as working one-to-one as a coach for creatives. She is a single parent who lives in Sheffield with her two children. In 2015, her partner, Blacksmith Paul, died suddenly and she frequently writes about loss.
Grief Can Be Hard On Your Mental Health When No One Wants To Talk About Death
We all die, but to say that feels shocking, uncomfortable and inappropriate, even though I know I'm not alone in experiencing loss.
16/05/2019 12:21 BST
In Between The World Of Loss And Living
I have a theory – I doubt it’s new but still, it’s mine – that there’s some kind of boundary separating this world from another
13/06/2018 11:53 BST
When You’re In Love With A Beautiful Man – And Then He Dies
How does it feel to lose love when you’ve only just found it? How does it feel to meet your partner’s mother for the first time to plan his funeral?
27/04/2018 09:43 BST
Two Years Ago My Love Died
In grief terms I grieved for at least 101 years before I fell in love again
13/03/2018 16:42 GMT
The Cost Of Losing A Loved One
I’ve just done my tax return. You wouldn’t expect a tax return to be a trigger for grief but it was. Being a hapless artist
30/11/2017 17:33 GMT
I Feel It Creeping Up On Me
It’s that time of year again isn’t it? At this time of year my mum would start phoning, asking what I’d be doing for Christmas
28/11/2017 11:45 GMT
Writing Saved My Life
When my new partner, Blacksmith Paul, died just twelve weeks after my last remaining parent, it was to writing that I turned in my despair. In the darkest of days, writing gave me a purpose. The blank page listened when there was no-one to talk to. My laptop understood when no-one else could fathom the degree of my heartbreak. Writing was my best friend.
24/10/2017 12:17 BST
Love Is The Only Option For Me
So, I met someone. It seems almost too perfect for words. I grieved fully and completely for a year, then on the 13th March, three days after the anniversary of Paul's death, I re-wrote my grief narrative to include the possibility of loving someone new and, just a month later, someone appeared.
06/06/2017 13:19 BST
To The Mother-In-Law I Never Had
You were by far the best mother-in-law I've ever had, even though your son wasn't there to see it. I want to thank you, Pat. I hope that you are with him now where both of us so longed to be. I hope you look down and see that, it is partly because of you that I can still smile and live on with your memories in my heart.
08/05/2017 13:21 BST
I Would Do It Again
'Two lovers, destined to be together, miss their chance repeatedly, spend their lives apart having a pretty miserable time, finally unite and then, just when things are going great, he dies and her life is ruined'. Maybe it makes a good weepy but it's certainly not an easy story to write a sequel to and, left here without you, that is, essentially, what I have to do.
03/05/2017 12:33 BST
We Can't All Be Butterflies In Grief
This time last year I was mostly amongst friends and holding it together pretty well in company until, one evening, one of the participants didn't come down for dinner and I found myself drowning in panic thinking that he might be dead. I stood up, excused myself and rushed sobbing to my room and didn't stop crying for hours.
25/04/2017 12:55 BST
Dating After Death
I started gently, casually, by reactivating Tinder and adjusting my personal statement to reflect my change in circumstances. I made it clear that I was not ready for a relationship but would like some male company. It was a clumsy beginning. The first person who approached me got short shrift when he asked me about my taste in books, films and music.
10/04/2017 13:00 BST
How Do You Survive?
I can still see him standing in my front garden that night writing messages to Hephaestus the blacksmith god with them, releasing paper lanterns into the sky. They loved him. I loved him. He loved me. And that was the last time I saw him. Five days later, he was dead.
09/03/2017 12:12 GMT
It's That Time Of Year Again
It's that time of year again. The shops are awash with red, the streets suddenly lined with hearts and flowers and teddy bears. Love is in the air. Love is on air. Love is everywhere. Valentine's Day is looming and there is no avoiding it.
12/02/2017 16:56 GMT